Rumoured occasions turning into wasted fate
soiled and stained
trampled and strained
temper restrained

Acknowledge it and it exists
Ignore it and you don't
why deny yourself such anger
haven't you deserved it?

My pills hard to swallow
defending oneself ain't all that easy
especially for eternity
accepting oneself is the game
accepting it is the game
headlong first to a level besmirched
by honesty

this ain't hell this is truth